Yayydarkness

so i lost the one girl that means the world to me and more, to another girl that we work with. it's all my fault :'( it kills me inside...to see them together every time i go into work. it's like shoving a knife through my heart every single time. i don't know what to think, or feel..sometimes i just want to keep driving and not come back, if i had the money i would...but  most of the time i just don't want to exist anymore. not existing would be nice its been about a month since she left me. not even no weeks after she left shes with someone else. it kills me.. i try to keep myself distracted, i try to hangout with friends everyday. it do

So it's been a while since i posted anything on here heheh. I guess i could say that i've been busy but that not really the case. I've been seeing my girlfriend of over a year alot. <3 i love her with all my heart. We just came back from Conneticon on monday. It was amazing!! I bought a ton of manga, a mini sword, a wooden sword of bleach's ichigo kurosaki's bankai and a bleach wrist band, the entire series of aquarion, and a fullmetal alchemist pocket watch :3 Me and Alicia cosplayed honey and mori from ouran high school host club. Only i kinda ended up being kyoya instead cuz i had to wear my glasses. Ah i can't wait to go to more anime

So a few days ago i had to put my cat Honey, who i've had for almost 12 years, to sleep. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I miss her so much and I wish I still had her here with me. She was bleeding eternaly and nothing could be done to help her. It still hurts to think about her :[ But my amazing girlfriend is helping me cope by cheering me up when I need it. :heart:. But my parents got me a kitten and she's so cute :meow: she's only 7 weeks old and her name is Faith. She's so tiny!! I love her :meow: :meow: :meow: Well off to go play with my new kitty. Going to see Alicia later on today. I love her with all my heart. :heart: S